Nixon: Now More Than Ever

Okay. Time for a life update. Here goes.

Things are definitely better (praise God!). After a month of NOT being on any antidepressants it became clear that it was just not working for me. I tried. It didn’t work. Pass the pills.

I’m now taking Zoloft which is considered safe for use during conception, pregnancy and breast-feeding. And I’ve gotta tell you…I feel like myself again!

At first, I admit I kind of felt like a failure for not being able to do this without the meds. However, my father reminded me that a malfunctioning organ is not my fault and God knows my situation. He is sovereign in everything. How true!

Over the next few days I kept pondering on the fact that God knows exactly what my body requires. I eventually decided that as humans we look at things statistically. 1 in 10 women will have conception issues. 50% of marriages will end in divorce. Etc. Etc. However, we are NOT statistics to Christ and He does NOT deal with us in that manner.

God knows what each of us requires. In every way: physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually…He knows. I could worry (but I’m not!) that taking an antidepressant might pose some risk to our future child but what good is this fretting going to do? Does God not know what my body needs to function? Is He not in control of “knitting” our baby in my womb to be the person He desires him/her to be? Absolutely. God will give us the child He has for us and no other. I am not a statistic of any drug company. I am God’s child and His will doesn’t have to follow our rules.

On the other front: it looks like James has landed a job. We haven’t got an official offer so I’m not going to say with whom but all signs are pointing to YES! Another praise Jesus! If this job does come through, he will be working for one of the top companies in the New Home industry. Their reputation precedes them. It would definitely be a move up! Hopefully, we’ll hear tomorrow. I’ll let you know.

We are also planning on going to Arkansas for another visit later this week. If James gets the position we are pretty sure he will start at the beginning of December so it gives us a little flex time, which is nice. Our last visit was good but it was too short and I just wasn’t feeling great. So…I’m very excited to go back. I think us gals might take a trip to Branson too…which I LOVE doing. And no…I’m not a member of the AARP. There’s just some really cool stuff there. I promise.

Although once…a few years ago, I did get an invitation to join the AARP. I found a gray hair that day too. I called my mom and asked her if she lied about the year I was born. She denied it. It was a bad day.

PS-the gray hair never came back. Phew.

PPS-I guess now that I’m feeling better I have to go back to the gym. Ugh.

PPPS-is my camera EVER gonna come???